let Justin sing it

What Goes Around Comes Around.

I hope this is true. because it seems lately me doing the right thing is just as bad as me doing the wrong thing. I keep asking myself, "why are you doing this?" I feel like this is the same sad song I sing daily. and I think i will never know the answer exactly.

I am physically and mentally drained. sick.

theres so much going on just trying to k  e  e  p       upp.

idk what else to say. 

 

he thinks he's turning 18

Juan Van Putten.

infamous juanito.

can be found in the streets of ladera, skateboardung upp slauson, or taking a photo of you at each event.

but the thing is if your anybody in LA, you know juan because he's juan.

I'm sure every person that knows him has their own experience but mine revolves around..

photography chats  (and me trying to act like I know all that your talking about), you talking about getting in trouble and your stupid English teacher, all the FML moments of my life (and yours), you giving me lessons on modern language such as "sus", you and tyler (sometimes breea) ganging up on me in video chats lol, or blogging and whether or not I should keep mine.

Well yet those things happen to pop up (so often) in our convos, what stands out the most is the trust I have found in you and the willingness you have to listen  to me (even when I ramble, alot lol). You seem to always have a solution, normally a very simple one ex "I dont give a fuck bout no hoe" and what it really meant in that particular case was fuck them, move on. Its those moments when both I laugh because I wasnt expecting that or because your right. Thank you for always having faith in my photography because coming from you that means alot. I'm a little upset that you wouldnt let me buy u a gift nor make u a cake. but it is your birthday i guess lol and i  love u anyway. and happy seventeenth birthday.

rudeK

I figured out the THEME for my party! its wonderful thanks to SARA-BO-BEAR-A? lol. 

everything is so weird right now. I feel like no matter what, I have no time to breathe. so cliche but i feel like no matter how far i get i fall 5 steps backwards. 

there are a few compromises im dealing with:

1. the rudeness of people. like why? people are extremely rude. I'm not talking about strangers, I'm talking about people I claim. being rude isn't cute..I really hate this. and if you dont have anything nice to say DONT SPEAK. please just go peel an orange. 

2. the double standards for guys and girls..

3. messy people. nosey people. like really get out my life maybe?

i just really dislike rude people, so just vanish. 

im trying to make a list of pros and cons and baby there are just too many cons.. like? why am i in this when your like what not?

amazing people lately. sara. juan. primous. arianne. karen L. Tatum.

it seems like nothing ever truly lasts..

what I ran into today

i love you i love you.

today i learned alot about life and about ppl i so called "love"

it was a boring day at the beach, picking up trash because certain authority was being taken advantage of for what reason? but besides the cold weather and sandy shoes, i had an opprotunity to bond with some of my classmates on a different level. Everyday the same girls place themselves in desks right beside me and I have no idea what is "really" going on in their life. if u knew what someone was dealing with would it alter ur perception of them? would u gain respect for them or being to care?

how do u just stop being friends with someone? please tell me how because i cant do these pointless friendships anymore

cant focus on anything including this blog post

i had this story I was going to tell you. 

but im not anymore.

have u ever felt empty?

like no one really understands you or that what you say doesnt really matter? Its not so much a matter of feeling lonely. its just a mattter or not feeling much of anything. 

my life.

i need some signs.

i actually need some food at the moment though..

ill write more later

a true friend

thank you for coming back..